Swimmin' in the Deep Blue Sea

Last night (or rather early this morning) I dreamt I learned how to swim in the depths of the ocean. I dove deep -- everything looked wonderful. I saw coral and beautiful fish and luminous water. . . When I dove deeper, it grew darker. I needed to keep changing my glasses. I wore sunglasses and switched them to regular glasses when things got dark. I enjoyed myself so much that I just kept swimming. Eventually, I realized that fatigue prevented me from continuing to swim, or to make it back. I also needed to come up for air (something I didn't do at all in the dream before). I surfaced and took air. I floated to conserve my energy. What a conundrum. What should I do? Then I awoke.

This could simply be about my mac. Yes, I am experiencing some computer trouble for sure. I decided to remove the ex's name from my home folder and managed to just create a new home folder . . . and then I figured out how to fix that and went about doing it the "right" way . . . and, somehow, through all of this renaming and such, I LOST most of my files. Fun.

I'm in the data recovery zone -- not a pretty place at all. Tread lightly. Knock before entering. Send <<<<< good vibes >>>>> to my iTunes. Hell, just pray for me!

There's been some progress (which includes making peace with the fact that I've lost some data permanently). It's not that bad. Nothing threatens my life or anything . . . and this loss of data just might have some positive effect because it erases my past. We build our lives based on our past experiences, but we don't have to be weighted down by them.